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Joss Whedon
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Sorry, I entirely forgot I did.
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Mon Jul 17, 2017 1:29 pm |
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MadMan
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George A. Romero and Martin Landau both died today. Damn.
_________________ This Is My New Blog. There Are Many Like It But This One Is Mine Shitty Film Thread Follow Me On Twitter If You Aren't Doing So Already The MadMan Reserved 31 Seats "I think its time we discuss your, uh....philosophy of drug use as it relates to artistic endeavor." -Naked Lunch (1991)
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Mon Jul 17, 2017 2:43 pm |
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The Nameless One
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Firebender wrote: I talked to Obscure a few weeks ago on Steam. He said he's doing good, just busy with life. He's down to watch DECENDANTS 2 with us when that happens. I honestly don't think that Obscure should be allowed to watch Disney's THE DESCENDANTS 2 with us He's Team Good as far as I'm concerned
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Tue Jul 18, 2017 12:51 am |
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The Nameless One
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Tue Jul 18, 2017 12:52 am |
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The Nameless One
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Tue Jul 18, 2017 12:54 am |
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The Nameless One
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MadMan wrote: George A. Romero and Martin Landau both died today. Damn. FUCK
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Tue Jul 18, 2017 12:54 am |
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The Nameless One
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Alright, everyone, so life is a completely toxic miserable shit show and even your so called "friends" are a bunch of flake ass nothings
Should I just end it? Be honest
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Tue Jul 18, 2017 12:59 am |
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The Nameless One
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HI OBSCURE, YOUR BUDDY WANTS TO FUCKING KILL HIMSELF MAYBE YOU SHOULD LOG OFF OF BATTLEGROUNDS AND SAY HI? BUSY MY FUCKING ASSHOLE
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Tue Jul 18, 2017 1:06 am |
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The Nameless One
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"You don't know me! I don't owe you anything!"
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Tue Jul 18, 2017 1:07 am |
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The Nameless One
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Evil, if you want to help, well, I don't know anymore. Apparently every single little thing is fucking broken and I just can't anymore. I just fucking can't.
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Tue Jul 18, 2017 1:08 am |
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The Nameless One
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All I want is for my entire fucking history to get erased, for not a single fucking soul on this planet to know who I am or how fucking hard this is on me, you fucking leeches.
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Tue Jul 18, 2017 1:09 am |
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The Nameless One
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Seriously can I please get permabanned or something? I don't want to do this anymore. I fucking hate this
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Tue Jul 18, 2017 1:10 am |
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The Nameless One
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Goodbye. I wish for you love and prosperity, as always. It's never been any different. I fucking love you people to death
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Tue Jul 18, 2017 1:16 am |
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MadMan
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Um are you okay, Nameless?
_________________ This Is My New Blog. There Are Many Like It But This One Is Mine Shitty Film Thread Follow Me On Twitter If You Aren't Doing So Already The MadMan Reserved 31 Seats "I think its time we discuss your, uh....philosophy of drug use as it relates to artistic endeavor." -Naked Lunch (1991)
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Tue Jul 18, 2017 2:03 am |
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Joss Whedon
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nameless, I'm pretty concerned about you.
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Tue Jul 18, 2017 4:33 am |
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Ace
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Guy we need to talk about Nameless. We need to talk to Nameless and check if he's ok.
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Tue Jul 18, 2017 5:42 am |
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Epistemophobia
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we're not gonna talk about judy at all
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Tue Jul 18, 2017 5:44 am |
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Joss Whedon
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nameless, here's a number you can call when you need help. Evil mentioned you lived in Ontario so I found this service http://www.mentalhealthhelpline.ca/Home/Call
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Tue Jul 18, 2017 6:20 am |
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Evil Prevails
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Nameless lives in BC.
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Tue Jul 18, 2017 6:37 am |
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The Guy in the Trenchcoat
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Nameless, maybe now is a time to seek out help. A voice from the darkness will tell you that it won't matter, that nothing can change. That voice is an idiot.
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Tue Jul 18, 2017 6:43 am |
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Joss Whedon
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Evil Prevails wrote: Nameless lives in BC. It sounded like you couldn't see him in Ontario? Evil Prevails wrote: Yeah, fourteen hours of driving just in Ontario cause we are taking the northern route. I figure he's in the south and it won't work out cause we are taking the most efficient northern route, sorry Kovich, but if he's anywhere near or can get to Ottawa we can make it happen.
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Tue Jul 18, 2017 6:51 am |
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Evil Prevails
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Joss Whedon wrote: It sounded like you couldn't see him in Ontario?
I was talking about the long missing Obscure Allusion To in that post.
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Tue Jul 18, 2017 7:03 am |
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Joss Whedon
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Evil Prevails wrote: I was talking about the long missing Obscure Allusion To in that post.
Oh well. It's my mistake then. Still, he should call someone
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Tue Jul 18, 2017 7:05 am |
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Evil Prevails
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Joss Whedon wrote: Oh well. It's my mistake then. Still, he should call someone Yeah, I'm certainly not arguing that point.
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Tue Jul 18, 2017 7:08 am |
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Smoke Bomb
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Is there a crisis center in BC someone can call and have them do a wellness check on him? Kinda like what Genie did to save Samm's life years back?
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Tue Jul 18, 2017 7:12 am |
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The Nameless One
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I just want to get treated like a fucking human, you know? Not some wounded animal in a fucking cage, no, just delete me. I'm so fucking done trying for anyone, and I'm not suicidal in saying that. i just fucking hate PEOPLE, okay? This just makes me sick. Typing makes me sick. Communicating like this makes me sick. I am sick from this. I need to stop
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Tue Jul 18, 2017 7:21 am |
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Smoke Bomb
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The Nameless One wrote: I just want to get treated like a fucking human, you know? Not some wounded animal in a fucking cage, no, just delete me. I'm so fucking done trying for anyone, and I'm not suicidal in saying that. i just fucking hate PEOPLE, okay? This just makes me sick. Typing makes me sick. Communicating like this makes me sick. I am sick from this. I need to stop You're not a wounded animal in a cage, you're a long time pal of ours that we're worried about and hope to see find peace and contentfullness in life. Not much else I can say aside from cliches grounded in honesty.
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Tue Jul 18, 2017 7:25 am |
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The Nameless One
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Thank you, smoke bomb
I just dunno what to say beyond tread ground. Things don't look very good here, as in, I have maybe 5 months of stability and I hope to god... yeah, I'm pretty fucked overall. There's not much here in Victoria, there's not much in BC. I can't afford to get off disability, I can't afford to live in BC. I'm on the knife's edge on getting out of my suite in regards to my family situation and it's the most I can do not to just go and scream in their fucking faces, which I have, and it's not helping
There's no chill, and I don't exactly know what people can do to help... my trust is at an all time low here and I don't have a single moment without anxiety, plus the idea of living outside of the area where my support is set up and everything, yeah, complete fucking nightmare. I just want a quiet place where I can write out a lawsuit
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Tue Jul 18, 2017 8:40 am |
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The Nameless One
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It's, like, there are all of these tools available to me but I can't get over the humps as to why they make me uncomfortable, like texting and whatnot. It's just me, like, I can't explain it, but it is really fucking lonely. I just really don't want communication to be constantly on this pretense where I'm just fucked in the head boy and there are boundaries and whatnot, like, for fuck sakes I'm not like this in real life. I'm just quiet and crying right now
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Tue Jul 18, 2017 8:43 am |
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Smoke Bomb
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The Nameless One wrote: It's, like, there are all of these tools available to me but I can't get over the humps as to why they make me uncomfortable, like texting and whatnot. It's just me, like, I can't explain it, but it is really fucking lonely. I just really don't want communication to be constantly on this pretense where I'm just fucked in the head boy and there are boundaries and whatnot, like, for fuck sakes I'm not like this in real life. I'm just quiet and crying right now Is consueling/therapy a feasible option for you? I can't figure what to say that'll help you other than trying to find a trained and empathetic ear that could hopefully help you find some clarity and begin the form plans to go forward towards the peace you seek. Have you been keeping up with your music? Usually exercising creative talents into producing something you're proud of can help with a good endorphin boost.
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Tue Jul 18, 2017 10:32 am |
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The Nameless One
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No, this is the result of me being on the tail end of all of that
Basically, i'm really tired of hearing it in wake of people actually being nice to me. I really have good reason to hate this whole race of ours, like, there is no solution other than to just hang out with people and take my mind off of it by, yknow, being around people. I do not get enjoyment doing anything alone anymore, like, how many years has it been of this? Did I get anywhere? No. But it's still necessary. I still don't have any perceivable options.
Like, I am kinda the textbook definition of someone who is perfectly valid when it comes to killing themselves. I really hate being alive, like, there is absolutely nothing in this for me and my family makes me so fucking miserable that I spend every day in tears hoping this just fucking ends, like, I was this close yesterday to just pouncing on my dad and I would have kept punching until someone stopped me. I'm kinda toeing the line of blunt psychopathic tendencies here and they weren't there, or as pronounced, two years ago. This was all him
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Wed Jul 19, 2017 12:09 am |
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The Nameless One
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If you want to help me sue the ever loving shit out of the Luchies family, that would be rad
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Wed Jul 19, 2017 12:13 am |
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The Nameless One
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That's part of the reason why I'm still posting lately because, and it sounds weird, but it's a perfect thermometer for my temperament. I'm kinda doing science with all of this where I'm gauging where I am at and what exactly sets me off... I'm trying to encapsulate the feeling my brain has when it clamps up and becomes painful. It sucks to say but a great deal of my being is selfishly driven... via necessity. I'm VERY trapped in my own mind here. There's nothing taking me out of it. Video games don't work, dicking around on the internet doesn't work, my sense of humor is dead (thanks Dan Harmon), and yeah, generally miserable. I can't compose when I'm miserable, I just don't have Nine Inch Nails in me... we've heard it all before
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Wed Jul 19, 2017 12:21 am |
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Smoke Bomb
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I know the feelings you're going through, maybe not at the same intensity but it's still a place I've been and I'm sorry you're there and there's nothing I can but hope good fortune can come your way so maybe you can at least enjoy the small joyous distractions of life again.
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Wed Jul 19, 2017 3:39 am |
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Joss Whedon
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I'm experiencing a similar situation to you nameless, with regards to money. I can't say it gets better cause it is an awfully bitter place to be in. It's always easy to say to someone get a job, however you need to find the energy to get one in the first place. I don't have any advice, just letting you know you're not alone.
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Wed Jul 19, 2017 6:31 am |
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The Nameless One
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What we need is marijuana legalized all over North America
I definitely need a job (pot farming?). I feel like my brain is back into submission mode. I had a rough week of family fighting. It's just a lot of factors, a short amount of time, and my brain slips in and out of knife edge insanity and normal. Is this what the next four years are going to be like until I hit 30 and have a 30 year old crisis? The ride never ends
I'm sorry, I'm going to keep it light and not end of the world dramatic, but that was very real. Thank you for being there because I get pretty trapped. It hasn't been easy holding onto my principals (still have my laurels) regarding empathy and such, most of it is dad projection. Yesterday was fucked. It's just a harsh bridging point and it's tough moving forward knowing I gotta be strict with my boundaries regarding them because I just can't anymore. I was raised by Trumps and it's tough to shake off
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Wed Jul 19, 2017 7:35 am |
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The Nameless One
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Like, how do you unsnap a snapping point. Snapper? It was just like... everything. Social media, fam, friends, just this massive knot which I feel needed constant sorting and the solution is tough. Meeting new people, with new boundaries in mind and whatnot, it's... *gulp*... adulty. More like apocalypsey. Total eclipse of the heart. Eyes without a face... a little respect
I hit the point, everyone
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Wed Jul 19, 2017 7:39 am |
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The Nameless One
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Fiiiine I guess Obscure can watch Disney's The Descendants 2 with us
If we're team evil, he's team horrendous
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Wed Jul 19, 2017 7:41 am |
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Evil Prevails
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I hope shit gets better for you, Nameless. If I'm not more supportive or such it's just cause I don't know what to do or say about problems I can't fix or at least have some idea how to fix, and I'm pretty sure you don't want to hear my advice on fixing yours. Wish you all the best.
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Wed Jul 19, 2017 8:15 am |
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Smoke Bomb
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The Nameless One wrote: Like, how do you unsnap a snapping point. Snapper? It was just like... everything. Social media, fam, friends, just this massive knot which I feel needed constant sorting and the solution is tough. Meeting new people, with new boundaries in mind and whatnot, it's... *gulp*... adulty. More like apocalypsey. Total eclipse of the heart. Eyes without a face... a little respect
I hit the point, everyone Usually I just begrudgingly shuffle through a cycle of days and weeks until something happens that loads my brains with endorphins and that gets me through to the next snapping point.
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Wed Jul 19, 2017 8:20 am |
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The Nameless One
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Evil Prevails wrote: I hope shit gets better for you, Nameless. If I'm not more supportive or such it's just cause I don't know what to do or say about problems I can't fix or at least have some idea how to fix, and I'm pretty sure you don't want to hear my advice on fixing yours. Wish you all the best. That seems to be the theme, like, it's not just you saying that but those awful professionals charging an arm and a leg to provide council. It's been tough packing it all up in order to put it behind me and it's always felt like I'm doing this whole fixing myself to be more temperate around my dad + family. I appreciate the honesty when it comes to me because I get the truth in it and it's definitely not my dad who is teaching the real lessons in all of this. I've been horribly defensive when it comes to the gallows humor and feel that's more my dad coming out because, in general, I appreciate saltiness. My dad's such a Jerry that he threatens me when I swear
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Wed Jul 19, 2017 8:56 am |
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The Nameless One
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Smoke Bomb wrote: Usually I just begrudgingly shuffle through a cycle of days and weeks until something happens that loads my brains with endorphins and that gets me through to the next snapping point.
That was today, alright. I went outside and accomplished errands! I honestly don't even know why I'm in a good mood. I got a lot out yesterday, that was a trip. I go through bad sleep cycles and I found myself in a car with 3 hours of sleep fighting with my dad not even knowing what's going on. Nothing was accomplished that day
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Wed Jul 19, 2017 8:59 am |
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Evil Prevails
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Six kids the guy had. Six!
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Fri Jul 21, 2017 11:41 am |
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Stu
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Damn shame, that 
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Fri Jul 21, 2017 12:10 pm |
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The Nameless One
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Evil Prevails wrote: Six kids the guy had. Six! "The person in whom its invisible agony reaches a certain unendurable level will kill herself the same way a trapped person will eventually jump from the window of a bruning high-rise. Make no mistake about people who leap from burning windows. Their terror of falling from a great height is still just as great as it would be for you or me standing speculatively at the same window just checking out the view; i.e. the fear of falling remains a constant. The variable here is the other terror, the fire’s flames: when the flames get close enough, falling to death becomes the slightly less terrible of two terrors. It’s not desiring the fall; it’s terror of the flames. And yet nobody down on the sidewalk, looking up and yelling ‘Don’t’ and ‘Hang On!’, can understand the jump. Not really. You’d have to have personally been trapped and felt flames to really understand a terror way beyond falling." - David Foster Wallace
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Fri Jul 21, 2017 12:13 pm |
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Evil Prevails
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Yeah, I read Infinite Jest, remember. The whole book, not just Obscure's snippets.
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Fri Jul 21, 2017 12:15 pm |
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The Nameless One
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God my mom hated Hybrid Theory when I slapped that shit into the tape deck, 2nd CD I ever bought. I loved all the Gundam toys scattered around their music videos
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Fri Jul 21, 2017 12:16 pm |
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The Nameless One
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Evil Prevails wrote: Yeah, I read Infinite Jest, remember. The whole book, not just Obscure's snippets. I find that the chances of me finding a workable quote from the book are higher than not regardless of my consumption of it. It's a perfectly googleable book
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Fri Jul 21, 2017 12:17 pm |
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The Nameless One
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Fri Jul 21, 2017 12:21 pm |
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Stu
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The Nameless One wrote: God my mom hated Hybrid Theory when I slapped that shit into the tape deck, 2nd CD I ever bought. I loved all the Gundam toys scattered around their music videos I paid less attention to Linkin as their career went on, but I still have fond memories of me and my best friend bumping HT plenty the year it came out, back when I was still a Nu Metal kid, and for that, I'll always have a little soft spot somewhere in my heart for Chester & company; RIP.
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